Feel Good or Die Trying

The words came to me as I decompressed in an early morning cold shower. We really have only two choices: resist or accept. As time and space flies by the human eye, I have come to gravitate more towards the ladder.

A quote from the Bible reads, “Ask and it shall be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7” If I have learned anything in the past year, it is that we get what we put out. When people are kind to me, I can't help but smile back. When I am in a bad mood, it's as if I repel all of the goodness that I once held in my heart. For the longest time, my focus was on the material as a means for cultivating well-being until I began to notice how my goals transformed into hindrances. An attachment to an outcome instilled a deep fear in me that paralyzed my ability to even start the projects I had spent so much time and energy spinning in circles over. As I walk further down life's path, I have come face to face with my limited ability to control things beyond my field of my internal cultivation. This morning, it hit me.

I was seeking instead of intending. Seeking is an attempt to find something. Intention is more of a formless objective You can't find joy in something where the joy does not originate; joy is the subtle vibration of all life and does not derive from a particular endeavor. If joy is everywhere then what is the purpose of life? (To open our hearts!) I found myself asking this question on a daily basis. More specifically, I came to understand that we are here to focus on things that light us up and keep our qi (energy) balanced. For me, this looks like a good balance of stillness and movement, with an ever expanding recognition of the underlying peace in all life. Life is peace yo. Certain activities serve as an easier catalyst to access that love and joy within myself.

For example, I feel extremely passionate when I think about roller skating, but this type of excitement does not come to me as easily when I think about riding a bike or scooter. I want to get really good at roller skating, but if I just fell trying to drop into a larger-than-my-average size bowl, I know that I might have to give myself an opportunity to rest instead of surmounting my level of productivity to the activity of skating. Taking care of ourselves has to always be my first priority, and I always remind myself that it's not the thing, it's the well-being. Feeling good is a choice that we all have to make. It is up to us whether or not we will answer the call of our higher selves, also known as that tiny voice that keeps giving you a message that you feel deep in your gut, but might be overpowered by a cloud of thoughts.

Peace,

Cosmic Source

7 Questions for 7 days:

1. What lights me up?

2. What is my relationship with my heart?

3. What does my higher self sound like?

4. What is it that I aim / ask for (from myself, others, the universe, God)?

5. Are my intentions (what I am aiming for) in line with my ultimate well being?

6. What is one way I can stay connected with my inner truth on the daily?

7. What is the difference between resistance stemming from inner vs outer misalignment ?